“I bet it’s your dream job!”
“I wish I got to stay home in my pajamas and work!”
“You’re so lucky! I wish I had your job!”
“You get to be your own boss…I’d give up everything to do that!”
“How do you do it all?”
These are real things I’ve heard about my job just this month. Don’t get me wrong, I’m thankful. I never thought I’d build my own company up after failing my NCLEX and closing the door on my nursing career. I actually, in that season, never felt like I’d ever have a job I was proud of, and to be honest. I felt, for almost 2.5 years, that my consulting company was my Plan B…my second best. I thought it was the means to an end, possibly going back to college, or leaving the workforce to be a full time stay at home mom. When people asked, I was slightly embarrassed, and felt the need to explain why I wasn’t using my bachelors of science degree. I felt people were sympathetic, and that they too were feeling sorry for me.
I had to wake up.
I realized about six months ago, that I was the only one placing these negative connotations on myself. No one, and I mean not a single person in my life that mattered, cared about what I hadn’t done. My career wasn’t second best. I have hustled, worked my tail off, and worked weekends and evenings, and sacrificed a lot to achieve what I have. I worked and worked and didn’t realize when things started actually succeeding. I have worked late into the night, cried tears of frustration over clients and work, and tried to juggle raising our two girls and homeschooling on top of it. The truth was, I had been killing myself, building up a company that I didn’t even know how to be proud of. It was silent, and it was exhausting. I was apologizing for creating something that I was exhausted trying to maintain. About six months ago, my husband showed me Gary Vee’s video/podcasts (a kick in the butt) and I realized all the negativity in my own head had really taken it’s toll. I was floundering and feeling really stuck. I didn’t know how to raise my rates to keep up with my experience, and I suddenly had a real, actual company that was growing year over year, month over month, and was overwhelmed. I had no vision anymore, because my little side job had grown into a real job, and I was just plain tired. I took a real big leap in May and hired an employee, which was something I had been needing to do for honestly, months and months. I just didn’t want to hand over the reins to anyone else, or release control over my company. I had to fix the problems.
But it was time to take the leap, and I did. You guys. I’ve never been more grateful. I hired Cameron in May, and it was the greatest business decision I’ve ever made. This month has been the first time I’ve really been able to breathe. I’ve taken my kids to the farmer’s market without glancing at my emails. Last night, we went the movies. We are traveling this weekend and next, and I don’t have to worry or be anxious about forgetting something. I didn’t realize how much I was tied to my work, until I had the chance to let it go.
All this to say, in three years of owning my own company and being my own boss, I’ve learned these three things:
-Be patient. Gary Vee’s big point is that everything takes time. You can’t rush anything. You have to put your head down and put in the work. You have to hustle. You have to pour yourself into late nights and weekends and then you’ll see results.
-When it’s time, let it go. I had built up a great company and solid brand and then it got too big, and I didn’t know what to do. What on earth was I working towards? I had to realize I was working so hard FOR my kids and to have a better quality of life, and it was time to release it so I could DO those things. I had to practice some real self care, and I’m still learning, but it doesnt matter how much money you make if you never can truly “clock-out”.
-There is nothing more important than connection. At the core of my brand is the value of storytelling. It’s why all my clients have sought me out, and why I will never lose the passion of what I do. There is nothing more important than the way I make my clients feel, and the way I treat them.